Moving my previous posts: Islam??

2 April 2004, 2:22 PM

islam...

what is islam actually is?

it is a religion...... yes! i know it is a religion....

but what is a religion? is it something that we just have to accept it is true? something that came from arabic world.... created according to their language... which makes us asian harder to understand the religion.

how do you know your shalat is accepted? how do you know that you are doing the right thing? how do you know that your prayer is being answered?

you dont know the language.... you cant understand every meaning of the word that you've spoken... you've chanted... you've asked for....
if yourself can not understand what's the meaning of what your saying.... how can The Creator could understand what you asked for? you yourself can not understand it.

learning arabic letters?
right.... and then you would think that The Creator only understand arab?
then you would think that if you didn't say the right arab word..... the meaning will be different... and what you've asked for will be different.

tha't funny......
like The Creator didn't know what's been troubling me.
like The Creator didn't have anything to do with my destiny.... which we all know it is come from Him/Herself. it is the Great Creator own design.... specifically for you..... and only you and The Creator know the relationship......

and yet....
you know that islam is the answer. you know that islam would give what you've been looking for. you just dont know what to embrace and believe. you just dont know where to look.....

some people already suggest some ways you could know what to believe and what to embrace. but that would in fact against what you've currently believe in.

the cards (tarot card) sez that i have to become The Fool. i have to be reborn again. i have to be someone that didn't know anything.... just born and walking in this world.... brand new. no preconception. no knowledge. just believe what you're doing its right and trust your feeling.

should i believe it?

damn.... kenapa sih gue dikasi otak yang selalu mencari2 jawaban ini?

padahal elo sendiri tahu, jawabannya baru akan ketemu..... kalau kita berhenti mencari.

hmm.....
ketika kamu mulai mencari Tuhan, kamu semakin menjauh dariNya..... where did i heard that....

oh... my angel... my girlfriend..... in the middle of her confusion and panick... that i, her boyfriend, her savior, her guidance.... start to think to leave islam. start to search for Allah. and by doing so.... i would lost my believe in islam and that would forced her to leave me......

damn...

and i cant talk to anybody else.... beside myself.

hmm....
ketika berhenti mencari..... disitulah kamu akan menemukan jawabannya.
dan kalau di balik...
semakin engkau mencari, semakin jauh engkau dengan jawabannya......

ada di mana yah....... cari ah....