Moving my previous posts: Pasrah 2

6 March 2004, 10:43 AM

decide not to ask.... find my own conclusion.... sort of....like always. damn... i hate it when im like that. it is like im a freaky or something like that....

ok... let structurize....

you know it is a big responsibility. you know you dont have to tell everything, because you are the only one that could read it. you just have to use the right words for delicate matters. you know that all along. you just have to be very very very careful with you mouth. or you could literally.... kill someone.

but...

what about myself? i could read it. i know it is for me. i know whether it is bad... and i know wheter it is good. i know it.

the question is not whether you know it or not. the real question is whether you could accept it or not.

but then again... it is the path to follow. you just have to walk the path. accepting really is something that we have to learn. because there is nothing in this world that could change it.

or is there?

one man destiny is in his own hands.

what if what you read is just something that could motivate you.... that could make you work harder to prove that.... it is wrong.
what if.... it just another plot... another path... that you have to take. a milestone... that you being 'cheat' by your own reading... in order to motivate yourself?

damn confusing this world. why cant we just accept it.... why does our Creator gives us greed and ego? gives us ego that makes us didnt want to accept our loss, defeat, frustration.....

i know it is a lesson for us. so that we could learn something from that experience. but, isnt it more simple we could just sit down... and listen...the things we should do or should not do.

but then again... who should we listen? people experience are different. or maybe... should i say.... people experiences are almost the same..... it is their own reaction, perception, and decision, that made them different. make us unique. and from all this unique individual.... our Creator could set and plot yet another different plot for us to learn.....

so... back to the question....
we have to accept. we have to accept illness, so that we could joy healthyness. we have to accept riots.... so we could realise the good in peace. or is it like that.....

gila... manusia emang bener2 kecil yah.... otaknya bener2 ngak mampu untuk memecahkan hal yang semudah ini. hal yang seharusnya mudah..... menjadi begitu sulit untuk diterima.

so... like it or not, i think i know what is the conclusion. i have to learn to accept. the way it is.... i cant change what is being written. it is beyond your own power and capabilities. hmm... back to the same question again....

how to change. .... how to accpet.....

what is to afraid? sengsara? perhaps....

hmm.... cant be solved. try another way lah....i'll let you know what's my decision...