Moving my previous posts: Tired

1 Juni 2005, 05:45 PM

have you ever been in a feeling....

where sleeping is your way out....

when you woke up from your sleep... you woke up from your dream.... you regret it so hard you wish you could just go back to sleep again.

and yet....

the more you sleep... the more you cant sleep....

and you just have to face it... that you need to wake up and face the reality.

and while your body feels like sh*t. badan elo pegelnya setengah mati karena kebanyakan tidur..... you just cant go back to sleep. you just have to face it.

have you ever been there???

have you??

i have.... plenty of times. and this morning.... is one of those morning.

i hate it....

but i cant do anything about it.

i want to let go this anger. i want to be peaceful. but somehow... that anger haunt me. it follow me around. and it eats me piece by piece.... until i cant have any feelings anymore.... until i cant think what i have to do today.... until i cant think my pasion, my dreams, my love.... my angel....

my angel....

she's really an angel.
who keeps giving me a light.... nomatter how dim, low and soft it is.... i still could feel it....

like when you drink a cup of hot tea in the midlle of winter.... your whole body is shivering with cold... but you still could felt the warmft of the tea... flowing down your throat.

and you just could forget the cold that you felt at the rest of your body. suddenly.... the warmft of you throat could give enough support dan warm for the whole body.

and she is that warm for me. she's the only reason.... why i'm not destructing myself bad enough.

she's my angel.....

although i know..... she's not the solution. she's just a cup of hot soup, that i have to take.... before i face the cold and hars reality of my real problems.