Moving my previous posts: Un-stopable Train

2 April 2004, 01:47 PM

have you ever been....... have you ever been told that the whole thing that you believe it's true.... it's not.

have you ever been told to change what you believe in.....

have you ever felt that there is something wrong in what you believe it's true.... it's just something that is not right.... you can't tell exactly what it is..... but you just felt it.... in your guts....

worse still.... you realize that there is nothing you can do to fight it.

because it flows like a raging water.....
like a train....

............ hmm......

life is confusing.
undestanding life, how it evolves, how it runs, how it rotate......

how the life around you... came alive....
how things that you never really sure exist..... show itself in front of your eyes.....
how things that you think as a bonus in life..... became an obsession......

it drive you crazy....
it give you difficulty when breathing.....

it just banging in your mind..... yelling to be opened... yelling to be acknowledged.... yelling to be accepted....

somebody said that it going to be a graduall process.... it is going to be hard, but graduall.....

but i didn't felt it like gradual...
i flet it like unstopable train.... created special to hit you.... to crushed you.....

until you surender..... and giving up what you believe in....

risking your own life... your own reputation.... your own family..... your own future....

i know i have to accept it.....

to make peace with myself. so icould grow and learn more.....

but where to begin?
but where to start?
but what to embrace?

listen to your heart, some said..... listen to your inner voice, other suggest....

as your inner voice is the voice of absolute truth....

i really have to make peace with myself........